Lately my depression has been so out of control. One minute I'm really high and then I got through patches of severe depression where it feels like everything is cutting me up. I had a nervous breakdown at the start of the year and now, I keep getting the feeling that everything is so foreign. And I've been really suicidal and I think I could easily do it because I have like virtually no support. I've had psychiatric assessment and tried medication but it generally doesn't work on me and my psychologists just can't seem to get to the root of the problem. Could this be bipolar? I'm not sure because I've read about psychosis before and I've been through that, I think. Arg, probably sound really crazy now but I need help. I'm doing my best to cope and function on my own but I don't know how much longer I can last without the right medication.